Believe

Dear Ziggy,

Every time I turn around, another week has flown by. You will be happy to learn that last week I found out I don’t have gestational diabetes! This means we can continue to eat all the ice cream we want (this week’s flavor was Baskin Robbins mint chocolate chip, in case you were curious).

So many strangers have been commenting to me about how big you are. Everyone thinks I must be giving birth to you very soon but we still have another 2 months to go. You are going to be a big boy!

Last week I allowed myself to do something I never thought I’d do - I bought a few items of clothing for you. I am a pretty superstitious person so this was a big move for me.
Yesterday, your Daddy and I went shopping for your crib. A year ago, I never thought I’d be doing any of these things. I’d always avoided the children’s section at Ikea like the plague because it made me sad. It was such a wonderful feeling to be able to walk into that showroom and pick up a few things for you. It made me feel so incredibly lucky.

I need to start believing you are going to arrive and be a part of our lives in just a few short weeks. This is something that I’ve had such a difficult time doing throughout this pregnancy.
Your mommy is the eternal pessimist. Hopefully you will change that.

Everything about my life has now turned to the future. Our future with you; our future as a family. I am ready to say goodbye to the past and the heartache and welcome you into our life.

I love you so much. And I believe in you.
Mommy